SHORT N NERD

(Well trying to be sarcastic about myself....wrote it on 24th October, 2009)

You see me always, sitting and bitting my nail
Like I always do each day in a month, without any fail.
I know you're thinking, that I'm just too short n nerd
A confusing puzzle, which you can't solve in a crossword.


But I am the best in my class, here at M.I.T.S.
Now you don't again make that, stupid questioning face.
Let me tell you it's, "Master In Talking Shit !!"
And I'll drive you mad, if you don't say "I want to quit !!"


I've got skills, I'm a champion in driving off flea
Keep your beer, coz I love my favorite "Earl Grey" tea.
I spend my time reading manga, which are funny and scary
So I stole all Naruto comics, from the town's central library.


You can never ever beat me, in a game of race.
I can write the value of "pie", out to a thousand place.
Once you see me type, you're always gonna stay amaze
My fingers move so fast, that I'll set the keyboard ablaze.


I'm always pinged by hundreds, when i try to chat
I even designed a full website, for my own pet cat.
I can memorize anything, like some writable media
When I'm bored doing nothing, i edit the "Wikipedia"


"Piano Man" yeah, that is my favorite theme song
I can kick your butt, in a game of ping pong.
I hack my friends account, just to have some fun
There is no killer application script, that I haven't run.


I spend my every vacation, attending only fun fair
I even got my name, written on my black underwear !!
Now do you still think, that I'm too short n nerd ?
A confusing puzzle, that you can't never solve in a crossword !!

DARKNESS WITHIN

(Exploring the darker side within..)


The night of timeless fire is drawing near
I flee... Throughout the years of throe
Watching through a mirror, as I fall apart
I see a wreck, I'm burning

I see angels burning, falling down in ruins
Looking down I see me, I'm my own enemy

Watching myself decaying, falling from high spirits
I flee... Throughout the ruins of me
Longing for finding my way out
Leaving myself, there's nothing left for me
The ruins are about to crumble down.

The flame is dying by shivery winds of jet black skies
It reflects hatred in my eyes
I see angels burning, falling down in ruins
Looking down I see my ashes scattered around my grave

Angels whispering fire, no longer I'm alive
Settled down I'm done with the trip to my kingdom come

UNBROKEN SPIRITS

(This is for me...to disappoint all those people....who think I'm weak..)

Hold it now, wait a minute.
Come on, just let me catch my breath.
I've heard the promises, I've seen the mistakes.
I've had my fair share of tough breaks.

I need a new voice, new law, new way.
Take the time, re-evaluate.
It's time to pick up the pieces, go back to square one.
I think it's time for a change.

I can feel the waves coming on.
Now my life is no more assuring than love.
So I won't let them destroy me or carry me on.
Even if there's no answers from voices above.

Unbroken spirits, obscured and disquiet.
Find clearness, this trial demands.
And at the end of this day, sighs an anxious relief.
For the fortune lies still in my hands.

If there's a pensive fear, a wasted year.
I will still learn to cope.
If my obsession's real.
Suppression that I feel, will turn to hope.

NEEDLED 24*7

(This is my favourite poem till now..)

Since day one I've been crass and far beyond
I couldn't laugh, I couldn't cry.
Always pretending to be a happy soul
But the truth is merely a condescending lie.

Like the faint blaze of the dimming candle
I can always see my life slowly dying.
With these broken wings, I'm falling down
Death creeping into me, I'm no more flying.

Out of strength to live, can't take it anymore
The blood of life drips off my arms, I see red.
Watching through the shards of mirror, I see myself
Another wrecked soul, living or just an undead ?

Hold me now, hold me tight, don't let go
You're my only hope, the only shooting star in my sky.
Please hold my hands, just take me in your arms
Help me to fight, coz it gets painful everytime I die.

I'm still waiting for you, when my world is burning
For one last time, let me feel the heaven.
Give me the shoulder to cry upon, make me alive again
Don't just walk away now, when I'm being needled 24*7.

FRIENDS FOREVER

(To all my beloved friends...may you stay with me forever..)

Oh my friends, I'm so blessed to have you.
You're my fortune, I love you all.
Living with you, is like gaining eternity.
Life without you all, is a life I'd never recall.

Some are cool, some are studious.
Some are hot, some are funny.
But like the seven colours of a rainbow, always are together.
I don't care how you are, you're always sweet as honey.

Sometimes we joke, sometimes we cry.
Sometimes we laugh, sometimes we fight.
But no matter what we do, without each other we can't survive.
That's why even after darker times, things become alright.

If I am asked, what I want for a wish ?
I'd want you all, in my upcoming birth.
I want no fortune, I want no fame.
I only desire you all, the best friends of earth.

I don't know, what lies in the future.
Wheather we'd stand, wheather we'd fall.
But one thing's for sure, we'd always be together.
Because you all are the best, and I'll always love you all.

SOMEDAY

(A ray of hope...for a better future....for somebody..)

How the hell did you wind up like this ?
As if there is a past that you miss.
How come you can't forget the past ?
Which has made you like a nuclear holocaust.

I wish you unclench your fist.
Don't let this pain to persist.
Please stop this flow of tears.
Try to forget this pain of years.

I know you want to undo the time.
Even if it costs you all your dime.
You hate the present and blame your fate.
But don't think that everything's too late.

Maybe your life is not like a  fairy story.
Which has no pain but only victory and glory.
But let's re-write your present tale.
So that your future life will always prevail.

But i know someday you will be fine, if not right now.
Someday you will find your way, maybe somehow.
Someday you will love again, you will again smile.
And I'd feel that this poem of mine is finally worthwhile.

VALENTINE'S DAY

(Silent cry from the midst of a silent heart...on a special day...wrote it on 10th August, 2009)

There you were..
Standing right in front of me.
Looking like a lovely angel,
The most dazzling girl, as i always see.

It is the 14th of Feb..
People call it valentine's day.
But to me it's a moment when,
what i feel for you, i can finally say.

It has been so long..
From the day i started loving you.
I forgot about everything,
I don't remember, how the time flew.

I bought a red rose..
Still wet from morning dew.
I would speak my heart out,
Start a new life, holding hands with you.

I took a step finally..
Inching closer and closer to you.
But then came out of nowhere,
A familiar face ,someone I always knew.

He kneeled down to you..
Said how much his love is aflame.
Stunned,contented and beaming you said,
That deep inside, you also felt the same.

The clouds above me moved closer..
And the ground below grew cold.
The heartless wind kept on blowing,
Telling me that, my wretched soul was sold.

My inside all turend to ash..
A black wind took them away from sight.
And blew far away as I collapsed.
It's darkness all around, like a dark night.

The thorns of the rose..
Bleeding my hand red like it's own.
On the edge of a Valentine's day.
Broken, beaten and scarred, I stand alone !!

SAY OK

(Some words for a friend....to make things go ok again..)

I saw you there, today
standing tall, all alone.
Like I see you everyday.

Nicely dressed, yet so quiet,
Lost in yourself, I don't know
If you are okay or something not right

Tell me if you are fine.
Or life is being foul to you.
Tell me, if you are a friend of mine

If I ask, you say you're cool
Nothings wrong, but I know,
You're lying, don't try to make me a fool.

I know you are hurt, I know you cry
You always hide your tears. I know you
Well enough, no matter how hard you try.

I know you, always hide,
The terrible pain of your broken heart
Your hidden tears flow, like an ocean tide.

But know this, you'll be relieved of pain
Life is not that bad, because know that
Nothing lasts forever, neither the cold November rain...

HOW I WISH

(For someone who is still looking for somebody....wrote it on 10th April, 2009)

How I wish if you were single..
Nobody to hold your hand..
We could have been together..
We could have mingle..

How I wish if you had loved me..
Like you love someone special..
My world would have opened..
By the magic of your loving key..

How I wish you always kissed..
My cheek, my neck, my lips..
Make me feel like heaven..
Always being loved, never being missed..

How I wish you always smile..
whenever, wherever you see me..
My life would become beautiful..
Like the gorgeous river Nile..

How I wish you were there..
When I felt alone, when I am lonely..
All my fears would have gone..
With the touch of your little care..

How I wish you knew what i feel..
How much i love you, i need you..
How my life without you is just like..
A rusty old car, without any wheel..

I know that now you are not mine..
But I know that someday, you will..
Realise the value of my love..
That will be the day my stars would shine..

You will realize who loves you more..
Me or your someone special..
You will start to feel love..
Like you have never felt before..

And I will wait for that day..
Which I know will come oneday..
I am ready to do anything for it..
Even if it is my life, that i will have to pay..

ANGER

(I really suffer from quick temper loss...so this is about myself)

Is it my fear ?
or deep inside..
this is what i desire to hear.

Is it a part of my life ?
or just a vengeance..
ready to stab like a knife.

Is it a chain in my mind ?
that cripple and bind..
and make me deaf and blind.

why is that..
when i try to be mild..
it goes off like a bomb..
drives me crazy, makes me wild.

what is it..
that runs through my vein..
ready to burst out..
leaving only pain.

Why it makes me feel..
that i am hollow and alone..
my mind like a brick..
and my heart like a stone.

Why it makes life..
like an ultimate sin..
whatever i try to do..
it just won't allow me to win.

Is it a weapon ?
to fight and unleash doom.
or just nothing but merely..
the architecture of my own tomb.