THE CONFESSION

(I tried to hide it forever...but unknowingly I confessed it yesterday...perhaps truth cannot be kept in the dark for long...wrote it on 26th February, 2010)

There was once a truth never to be known
A truth inside, hidden beneath my soul.
A truth that I intended to hide forever
Keeping it from reality was my only goal.

Survived in my mission for over years
Never let it all out, kept it all along me.
Even against turbulent and hostile reality
I pretended with only blinded eyes to see.

But when success seemed to be so near
When against all temptation I broke apart.
A confession I made unknowingly in front of you
That I ever intended to hide from the start.

Perhaps I was done by the question asked
A question in disguise like a deadly cancer.
Never knowing of what I tried to say aloud
I was buried in the silence of my own answer.

Drawing regret from the truth of a thousand lies
Lies that I forged only to run away from you.
Only to realize that this may be the only truth
That will someday draw me one step closer to you.

STILL ALIVE

(To "Izzy" yet again....hope by some divine miracle you'd read this someday....if you really exist somewhere....wrote it on 23rd February, 2010)

Long gone are those unforgettable days
When life without you was unbearable.
Long gone are those fulsome shiny days
When life was a bit more than just living.

Perhaps you won't be able to see me again
Because I lie dead in the ashes of time.
But through the cute smile on your lips
I'm still living in you, I'm there still alive !!

Do you remember those days of the past
When we called each other every night ?
Do you remember all those silly fights
Those little exaltation and conceit aftermath ?

Perhaps you won't ever remember me again
Because my face is lost in the midst of all.
But through the tears hidden beneath your eyes
I'm still living in you, I'm there still alive !!

All the promises that we always used to make
Never to forget, never to let go of us.
Yet the promises made, they don't exist anymore
They were lost somewhere and were never found.

Perhaps you won't hear from me ever again
Because my voice won't reach to your soul.
But through the little dreams in your heart
I'm still living in you, I'm there still alive !!